A bit of clarification...

Margaret's reply to yesterday's post was helpful in focusing my struggle. I spent a lot of my life trying not to be noticed. A sense of if I hold still enough, the monster will pass me by and not see me, thereby leave me be, safe. I was going to say that the problem with that is that you miss out on life, but then I have to pull myself up short. Yes, sometimes I feel paralyzed, and yet I've traveled all over the country, lived on three different continents, enjoyed a variety of jobs, and have friends all over the world. That doesn't really sound like I'm missing out on life. Maybe, it's feeling like I'm missing out on the life I wanted to have instead of being grateful for the amazing life I do have. A matter of gratitude. So, Thank God for the wondrous life He has given me.