Please, God, help me recover from this whatever it is, though I think it might be a cold. The weather did the bounce into the 70s and then down into the 50s, and I don't handle it well. Ever. If I'm going to end up with a cold, this is usually how it happens. Crumbs. Thank God for Gypsy Cold Care tea. It helps me, without the unpleasant side effect of a sinus infection, which is what happens to me when I use over-the-counter cold products, like Tylenol Cold.
The main thing to accomplish today: GET WELL. Though if it's a cold, I'll simply have to allow it to run its course, but I can keep it from becoming worse. So rest, fluids, and Gypsy Cold Care. Check.
I do have a project I need to work on. Deadline is coming.
I want to finish reading The Warrior Elite. Today will be a good day to do it.
Anything else I accomplish will be icing on the cake....
....mmmmmmmmm cake... I love cake... cake in milk... German Chocolate cake... in milk...
Squirrel!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Thank Goodness It's Sunday #88
~Inspiration from other bloggers, who lift my spirit, and help me hold true to my faith. Nikon Sniper posted this last night, and it was another breadcrumb to remind me I'm headed in the right direction. Nikon Sniper: Are You Hiring A New Manager?
~Yummy breakfast and chat with my sister.
~Fun mail.
~Good health. How often does one take that for granted? Then you have a headache, stuffy head, sore throat, and a cough, and feeling better is miraculous. Not well, but being able to think is such a blessing.
~From The Warrior Elite by Dick Couch, page 168: [When asked why they quit BUD/S] Many said, "I lost my motivation," as if it were a pair of reading glasses they had simply misplaced for a moment.
How often have I treated my motivation like it was some object to be lost or found? Instead of blaming some ambiguous something for the loss, I need to ask myself what has changed. What decision did I make that took precedence over my self-motivation?
For example, I've been looking at the same chapter all day. I did this on Thursday, and never did work it out. I opened the chapter on Friday, and kept looking at the same chapter. I moved words around, cut and paste, edited, and rearranged. It was evening before the first paragraph became three, and everything fell into place, and I finished editing five chapters before going to bed. Now, I'm again staring at the same chapter I've been staring at all day. Something isn't right. I was feeling discouraged. What happened to my motivation? Nothing. My motivation is there, and it's strong, or I would have closed the document and done something else. I simply haven't worked through the problem, but I will.
I've gone from helpless victim of fickle fate (or muse if you prefer) to empowered creator, turning the phrases until they are exactly as they are meant to be.
~Yummy breakfast and chat with my sister.
~Fun mail.
~Good health. How often does one take that for granted? Then you have a headache, stuffy head, sore throat, and a cough, and feeling better is miraculous. Not well, but being able to think is such a blessing.
~From The Warrior Elite by Dick Couch, page 168: [When asked why they quit BUD/S] Many said, "I lost my motivation," as if it were a pair of reading glasses they had simply misplaced for a moment.
How often have I treated my motivation like it was some object to be lost or found? Instead of blaming some ambiguous something for the loss, I need to ask myself what has changed. What decision did I make that took precedence over my self-motivation?
For example, I've been looking at the same chapter all day. I did this on Thursday, and never did work it out. I opened the chapter on Friday, and kept looking at the same chapter. I moved words around, cut and paste, edited, and rearranged. It was evening before the first paragraph became three, and everything fell into place, and I finished editing five chapters before going to bed. Now, I'm again staring at the same chapter I've been staring at all day. Something isn't right. I was feeling discouraged. What happened to my motivation? Nothing. My motivation is there, and it's strong, or I would have closed the document and done something else. I simply haven't worked through the problem, but I will.
I've gone from helpless victim of fickle fate (or muse if you prefer) to empowered creator, turning the phrases until they are exactly as they are meant to be.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
My Heroes... Penny Jordan...
Penny Jordan was a romance writer for Harlequin. She past away, December 31, 2011, from cancer. She was only 65 years old. This is the article at The Washington Post.
Why do I mention her, now?
As I was sorting through papers, I unearthed my magazine "Simply Books," put out by Harlequin. This was the most recent issue, Oct 2011-Jan 2012 issue.
A regular feature, which is always printed at the end, is a one-page question and answer article that spotlights a different author in every issue. It's appropriately called, "The Last Word." Poignantly, this one was "The Last Word with Penny Jordan."
When I saw it, my first thought was that it was incredible timing. Perhaps they knew, and planned accordingly. I don't know. It doesn't really matter. What was important to me was that this interview took place before Oct, in order to be ready for print in the magazine. It was fun to learn her favorite flower was lavender, since I love it, too. I especially like it's healing and calming properties. But that still wasn't what made me catch my breath.
"How many books have you written? I think it's about 185--I can't wait to reach number 200." If you read the article, you saw she reached her goal. Amazing.
What a priceless gift to inspire another to reach higher.
Why do I mention her, now?
As I was sorting through papers, I unearthed my magazine "Simply Books," put out by Harlequin. This was the most recent issue, Oct 2011-Jan 2012 issue.
A regular feature, which is always printed at the end, is a one-page question and answer article that spotlights a different author in every issue. It's appropriately called, "The Last Word." Poignantly, this one was "The Last Word with Penny Jordan."
When I saw it, my first thought was that it was incredible timing. Perhaps they knew, and planned accordingly. I don't know. It doesn't really matter. What was important to me was that this interview took place before Oct, in order to be ready for print in the magazine. It was fun to learn her favorite flower was lavender, since I love it, too. I especially like it's healing and calming properties. But that still wasn't what made me catch my breath.
"How many books have you written? I think it's about 185--I can't wait to reach number 200." If you read the article, you saw she reached her goal. Amazing.
What a priceless gift to inspire another to reach higher.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Evaluation...
All I ever wanted was to marry and have children, a family of my own. It didn't happen. I was unhappy for a long time, until I was willing to let go of that dream and choose another, a dream that depended on me. This past year, I was finally able to realize that what I REALLY wanted, all along, was to be a blessing to others and to myself. It changed my world. I'm single, poor as a church mouse, screwed up in a lot of ways, but never happier, because every day, sometimes with a lot of effort, I am a blessing. Every day, I'm exactly what I want to be, if only for a moment.
From FaceBook came my new mantra: Follow your heart, but bring your brain along.
I find myself in a difficult position. Finances are tight. I've been told about job opportunities in my old career. It would mean I'd have an income immediately, but it also means I wouldn't spend as much time on my current career. I worry about money, especially with what I have dwindling. It's a practical concern. I think of the story about the drowning victim complaining God didn't save him, and God replying, "I sent you a log, a boat, and a helicopter. What more did you want?" Am I drowning and ignoring the log, the boat, and the helicopter? Or am I being asked, "Are you going to give up what you want most for what you can have right now?"
Why didn't I see this before? Maybe I should ask, "Why didn't I believe this before?"
Right now, it is not a good time for me to take on something new. I'm feeling swamped as it is. Why don't I trust that when I'm ready God will provide what I need?
My decision made, my desire to binge has stopped.
I feel like a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Oh.
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come unto me, ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
"Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly of heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
"For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
From FaceBook came my new mantra: Follow your heart, but bring your brain along.
I find myself in a difficult position. Finances are tight. I've been told about job opportunities in my old career. It would mean I'd have an income immediately, but it also means I wouldn't spend as much time on my current career. I worry about money, especially with what I have dwindling. It's a practical concern. I think of the story about the drowning victim complaining God didn't save him, and God replying, "I sent you a log, a boat, and a helicopter. What more did you want?" Am I drowning and ignoring the log, the boat, and the helicopter? Or am I being asked, "Are you going to give up what you want most for what you can have right now?"
Why didn't I see this before? Maybe I should ask, "Why didn't I believe this before?"
Right now, it is not a good time for me to take on something new. I'm feeling swamped as it is. Why don't I trust that when I'm ready God will provide what I need?
My decision made, my desire to binge has stopped.
I feel like a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Oh.
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come unto me, ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
"Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly of heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
"For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Week Thirty-One of REAL...
The 20th: weigh in: 235.6 lb. Knowing what I ate, yesterday, I'm not surprised. I stressed. Really stressed. Even though I'm still stressing, today will be better. I'm killing myself, and it has to stop.
The 21st: weigh in: 235.6 lb. One SEAL puppy rep. Three-mile walk, total 60 minutes. One more SEAL puppy rep.
The 22nd: weigh in: 235.4 lb. Once I reach 230 lb, I will clean out my closet of all my fattest clothes.
The 23rd: weigh in: 236 lb. One SEAL puppy rep. Half-mile walk, 15 minutes, total 75 minutes. I'll be lucky if I hit 150 minutest, this week. Really. There are days, and there are days, and this past week has been one of them. Not beating myself up. One more SEAL puppy rep. Physical therapy, with weights.
The 24th: weigh in 235.4 lb. Sorting through papers, I found one on which I'd written: Today starts a new REAL, based on building my self-esteem, to see how that affects my weight. My weight was 239.2 lb, on July 17, 2011. Really, I'm not doing too badly. I haven't seen 239 in quite a while. This is good. I am making progress. Not fast progress, but progress none the less. On the same sheet of paper, I wrote: I'm not afraid to live. I'm not afraid to fail. I'm afraid of being wrong. Yep. I'm still afraid of that. I'm eating, today, was terrible. I'm feeling really stressed. Not sure why. Oh, wait, had to deal with finances this week. Tomorrow will be better.
The 25th: weigh in: 235 lb. Wow. Didn't expect that. One SEAL puppy rep. One-mile walk, 25 minutes, yes, it's that kind of week, with a total of 100 minutes. Half. It's okay. I knew it would be a tough week.
The 26th: weigh in: 235 lb. Waist circumference: 40". Sigh. It's okay. It was a rough week. Actually, it was a pretty rough week, so I did really good. A lot was going on, and I felt out of control most of the past week. In fact, yesterday, was the first day in over a week when I was careful about what I ate. Yep, only made half the 200 minutes, but I did make half. Today, I start again. I will do this.
Note: Just woke up from a three hour nap, 11 am to 2pm. I may be sick. I hope not.
The 21st: weigh in: 235.6 lb. One SEAL puppy rep. Three-mile walk, total 60 minutes. One more SEAL puppy rep.
The 22nd: weigh in: 235.4 lb. Once I reach 230 lb, I will clean out my closet of all my fattest clothes.
The 23rd: weigh in: 236 lb. One SEAL puppy rep. Half-mile walk, 15 minutes, total 75 minutes. I'll be lucky if I hit 150 minutest, this week. Really. There are days, and there are days, and this past week has been one of them. Not beating myself up. One more SEAL puppy rep. Physical therapy, with weights.
The 24th: weigh in 235.4 lb. Sorting through papers, I found one on which I'd written: Today starts a new REAL, based on building my self-esteem, to see how that affects my weight. My weight was 239.2 lb, on July 17, 2011. Really, I'm not doing too badly. I haven't seen 239 in quite a while. This is good. I am making progress. Not fast progress, but progress none the less. On the same sheet of paper, I wrote: I'm not afraid to live. I'm not afraid to fail. I'm afraid of being wrong. Yep. I'm still afraid of that. I'm eating, today, was terrible. I'm feeling really stressed. Not sure why. Oh, wait, had to deal with finances this week. Tomorrow will be better.
The 25th: weigh in: 235 lb. Wow. Didn't expect that. One SEAL puppy rep. One-mile walk, 25 minutes, yes, it's that kind of week, with a total of 100 minutes. Half. It's okay. I knew it would be a tough week.
The 26th: weigh in: 235 lb. Waist circumference: 40". Sigh. It's okay. It was a rough week. Actually, it was a pretty rough week, so I did really good. A lot was going on, and I felt out of control most of the past week. In fact, yesterday, was the first day in over a week when I was careful about what I ate. Yep, only made half the 200 minutes, but I did make half. Today, I start again. I will do this.
Note: Just woke up from a three hour nap, 11 am to 2pm. I may be sick. I hope not.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Odd bits of information...
These are a few little things I've wanted to share, but they didn't merit a post of their own.
Activa is horrendous. Every time I see the commercial for it, I want to scream, and sometimes do, at the television. I tried it, and I remember how ill it made me. I thought there was something wrong with me. I read up on it, and my side effects were a common complaint. Live and learn.
"Lemmings, nature's nachos." ~ Steve Kroschel Wildlife photographer
I tried another cocoa mix, and mine is still the best on the planet. Tablespoon of cocoa and tablespoon of sugar in milk, with marshmallows. Yummy.
Loved my sister's post, yesterday. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2012/01/teach-our-daughters.html
I told a friend I wasn't feeling well, but would be better in a few days, like I am once a month. She admitted that from time to time she missed the cycle. I considered her words and came to the realization that I will, too. After all, once it's over, what will I use as my excuse for crazy behavior, uncontrollable sobbing for no apparent reason, and bingeing?
Activa is horrendous. Every time I see the commercial for it, I want to scream, and sometimes do, at the television. I tried it, and I remember how ill it made me. I thought there was something wrong with me. I read up on it, and my side effects were a common complaint. Live and learn.
"Lemmings, nature's nachos." ~ Steve Kroschel Wildlife photographer
I tried another cocoa mix, and mine is still the best on the planet. Tablespoon of cocoa and tablespoon of sugar in milk, with marshmallows. Yummy.
Loved my sister's post, yesterday. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2012/01/teach-our-daughters.html
I told a friend I wasn't feeling well, but would be better in a few days, like I am once a month. She admitted that from time to time she missed the cycle. I considered her words and came to the realization that I will, too. After all, once it's over, what will I use as my excuse for crazy behavior, uncontrollable sobbing for no apparent reason, and bingeing?
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
More SOPA/PIPA info...
This 11 minute video does a pretty good job of describing these power grabs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBy7yooz3MM
Though it has been voted down in the House of Representatives, the Senate Chairman, Harry Reid, has kept this idiocy alive in the Senate. The concept of these bills is a "nice" idea: stop piracy. However, these bills are impractical and unenforceable and open the doors to far worse than piracy.
I emailed my Representative, and was proud to learn he'd voted "No." I also emailed one of my Senators. I couldn't email the other because he has removed his email contact information.
Write your Senators and State Representatives to vote "No."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBy7yooz3MM
Though it has been voted down in the House of Representatives, the Senate Chairman, Harry Reid, has kept this idiocy alive in the Senate. The concept of these bills is a "nice" idea: stop piracy. However, these bills are impractical and unenforceable and open the doors to far worse than piracy.
I emailed my Representative, and was proud to learn he'd voted "No." I also emailed one of my Senators. I couldn't email the other because he has removed his email contact information.
Write your Senators and State Representatives to vote "No."
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