It happens in a blink...

I love the song "Blink" by Revive.

Life has been a bit more adventurous than I like. Routines are good. God likes to shake things up, especially when He sees a greater opportunity available. There's been a bit of upheaval with work because of all the new regulations. Yesterday, it was intimated that I may not have a job any more. ACK! I endeavored to remain calm, and trust God. Not easy, when I already know that God can and will throw me under the bus if He sees a higher purpose to it all. Not comforting to me, in the short run. I know that in the long run His plan is always better, not easier, better. In fact, God's way is the hard way. God isn't interested in the easy way; He wants the most bang for His buck. Huge error in judgement: People believe that if they trust in God, it will be easy. NOT. If you trust in God, the worst in life is bearable, and the best in life is even better.

I struggled with the possible implications, and though I turned it over to God, yesterday, I struggled with it again, today. Do I truly believe God has my best interest at heart? Am I truly willing to accept whatever He sends my way? Yesterday, I tackled the work I had, and by the time I finished, I was at peace. Today, I made cheesecake. I couldn't afford shopping therapy, especially if I was losing work, but cooking therapy is great too, especially now that I'm better about portion sizes. Still using up that six-year-old cream cheese. And it is delicious! Remembered some of my old cooking secrets. Yummy.

Finally, I felt at peace, not because I accepted that the job might be gone, but that I decided I wasn't going to worry about it, today, or tomorrow, or the next day. I'd worry about it Monday, when I'd be given more information. I settled. Then I received a phone call, asking if I'd be willing to help out, part time. I don't know if I'll be paid. I don't care. It is something to do! Something to keep me busy, in a useful way. Everyone needs to be needed, to feel like they contribute, even if they pretend otherwise. I'm looking forward to a change in my routine. I'll miss some things about my old routine, but look forward to the adventure God is leading. I trust HIm a little bit more.

Unexpected result: I have never had a lock on my bedroom door. Ever. I hate that. I unearthed my trusty screwdriver, and went hunting for a doorknob I could use. The first one I tried couldn't be fully dismantled. Fine. Then, God inspired, I know, I checked my storage room door. Whoohoo!! A locking mechanism. It's never used. I traded. All by myself. I did it. Now, I have a door that locks!! I'm so excited. I'M THE KING OF THE WORLD! Not really, but I feel damn good.