Living with anxiety...

It's worse, today. I have to talk myself into doing my grocery shopping. I had to give myself a pep talk to simply stop at my insurance agent's and pay my bill. They're really, really nice people. I have to push myself to go for walks alone. If I have a meeting to attend, I have to psych myself into it. On bad days, it doesn't matter what I say or do, sweet talk or threats, I don't make it out the door. It helps if I have a set schedule. Going to pick up work is a must, and I find a way. If I skip shopping one week, I may not make it the next week, either. Changing the day I go shopping adds to the anxiety. Change in my schedule is a nightmare. If I have time to think things through, and rebuild my schedule in my head, I'm able to manage, sometimes easily, sometimes not, but I do manage. An abrupt change and you might as well flush my day. I'll forget what I need to be doing until I'm able to re-establish a routine. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, and feel for those who have it worse than I do.